dgenpres
05-25-2009, 02:27 PM
(I think folks on this board will prefer this version. It's not hardcore OD, however, so skip it if that's your thing.)
I noticed her as soon as I walked into the café that first time. You couldn’t help but notice her with those big breasts, big eyes, and long, dark hair. A radius of near silence surrounded her as she waited tables, those around her stunned as she neared – very hot.
I’ve never been intimidated by those most would consider “out of my league.” Humans are still animals and will respond to the right stimuli. So I got a seat in her section and let loose with the charm. She was friendly and responsive, but that was her job so I wasn’t sure if I was getting anywhere. At least I got a name - Kayla - but the café got too busy for me to really have more than a few flirty words with her so I resolved to come back later in the week.
Same thing next time – the joint filled up as I got warmed up to her but soon she was too busy to chat.
Then I had a busy week and didn’t get back to the café. But the following week I made it back and she smiled as I walked in and gave a little wave. At least she recognized me.
There wasn’t a table free in her section so I got a seat at the counter and ordered. I was happy when she came by to check on me, even though I wasn’t at one of her tables. “Do you need anything?”
“Only your phone number.”
“Pffff” she scoffed and walked off.
OK, maybe I wasn’t getting anywhere.
So I had my dinner while ogling her and headed out. I tried to catch her eye and wave as I left but the joint was hopping, as usual.
Normally I’d let it go at that. Clearly she wasn’t interested and there were other fish in the sea, but somehow I kept finding myself back at the café, in her section whenever I could find a seat there. Something about her made the hair on the back of my neck stand up. She moved with a certain disconnected grace, like she wasn’t on this planet at all and just barely noticed anyone here but would be warm and friendly when someone came near.
Or maybe she’s just really fucking hot.
Eventually she knew my name and would greet me when I walked in, take my order and move directly into small talk. But she always scoffed when I asked for her number or asked her out. So I was surprised one day when I was settling my tab and she walked over and said, “My car is in the shop. Can you give me a ride home?”
“Uh… sure!” I said, almost stammering.
Outside the work environment, she seemed to loosen up a bit. We had a nice conversation and seemed to hit it off. When we got to her house she thanked me and was about to hop out but I stopped her, “So why won’t you ever give me your number? I can be a charming date.”
“You’re nice. Maybe I will sometime.”
Then she slipped out the door.
So of course I was back at the café a few nights later, trying my luck again. This time she said, “I’ll be honest – I’m not looking for a date right now. I just got over someone. But I wouldn’t mind going out and doing something. I’ve got to get out of the house this weekend. So if you want to be friends that’s cool, but that’s all.”
“Alright,” I said, agreeing to anything I could get, thinking it might be the first step in the right direction or it wouldn’t work out, but either way it was worth a shot.
We had a few dates-that-weren’t-dates. It was frustrating because everywhere we went men would look at us and I could almost hear them thinking, “Shit, that lucky bastard.”
But no, we were just friends. We went to movies, gallery openings, met for lunch a few times, but nothing sexual happened for a couple of months.
She asked me on a not-really-a-date-date for a movie, The Island with Scarlett Johansson and Ewan McGregor. We had talked about our favorite objects of desire so Kayla knew I had a thing for Scarlett (what straight man doesn’t?) and she had a thing for Ewan (what straight woman doesn’t?) so it was the perfect film for a friends-only date, since it’s not a “date movie” kind of film.
It’s also not a great film, but we enjoyed it. Afterward neither of us were ready to go home so we stopped by the bar next door and chatted about the film, then about other stuff, until it was pretty late and we were both a little tipsy. I was feeling brave so on the way home I made another play.
“So… have you started dating again? I mean for real?”
“I’ve had a few dates but nothing real.”
“Real emotional or real… physical?
”Why, jealous?”
“No, just asking.”
“Nothing either. Sex with me is kind of weird.”
I figured she meant the typical female kind of “sex is important and I want to feel something for the person I’m having sex with” weird and just nodded. We pulled up in my driveway and she stopped and put the car in park. I was prepared to admit defeat and make the usual friendly goodbyes but in the silence she looked me in the eye as if considering something. I looked back with a “Well…?” smirk on my face. She turned the car off, getting my hopes up.
Rather than ask if she could come in or lean in for a kiss, she had been considering whether or not to tell me something. It came out.
“When I was in high school my first boyfriend, Daniel, and I used to make out. He wanted to go all the way but I was a virgin and I didn’t want to get pregnant and I wanted the first time to be special and all that stuff, so I kept putting him off. But we kept making out. We’d kiss, he’d get his hand in my pants or vice versa. Eventually we got around to dry humping and… I really got off on it. He’d be grinding against me, hard as a rock, and begging to fuck me and I learned to orgasm that way. Maybe he’d get off too or maybe I’d give him a handjob or blowjob but the best part for me was him rubbing my clit through my panties and telling me how much he wanted me. Sometimes I’d send him home without helping him get off just so I could go home and masturbate, thinking about how much he wanted me.”
I had to adjust myself. Of course I was picturing her in a car, some guy between her legs, his hand running over her amazing breasts, her getting off on it.
She noticed and giggled, “Sorry. I probably shouldn’t be telling you this stuff.”
“No, it’s ok,” I said, trying to sound friendly but wondering if I shouldn’t try to sound interested for other reasons. I can be a bit too passive in my relationships. I tend to sit back and see what happens, at least when it comes to sex. Some women find this intriguing, mysterious, and pursue. Others need a man who is the aggressive one. Often I sit back and wait too much and don’t take chances when I should. But Kayla’s body encouraged me to take chances though our relationship kept me at arm’s length. Each time she looked away during the conversation I couldn’t help but look down at her cleavage, barely peeking out from her dress.
So none of this introspection occurred to me as Kayla talked.
“I kept telling Daniel, ‘When summer comes we’ll have time to do it right.’” I think I was putting him off because I was still a little scared, but also because I didn’t want things to change. I was getting off and he kept coming back for more. I wasn’t just scared of sex, I was scared of losing him, and worried that sex – like, actual intercourse – would be a let-down. So when summer came around I ran out of excuses and we did it and it *was* a let-down.”
I nodded sympathetically, “The first time usually is for most people.”
”Yeah, well, it wasn’t just the first time. Every time I thought, ‘Is this *it*?’ I’d had much more fun just dry humping. I found myself avoiding Daniel because I knew he’d want to screw and I just wanted to make out. But I was young and didn’t know how to talk to him about it so we fought and broke up by the time summer was over. Which was ok because he went off to college and I had another year of high school.”
There was a long pause. My passivity returned. I wasn’t sure what to say. She’d just opened up and if we were really dating I’d kiss her and we’d connect physically after the emotional connection – but we weren’t dating.
“So…” she said, taking the initiative, “wanna make out?”
I leaned over to kiss her as an answer.
Maybe my “wait and see” attitude worked to my advantage, I thought, congratulating myself. The thing is, “just you wait and see” could be Kayla’s motto.
Her lips were big, soft, warm, wet, slippery – everything you want in a kiss. She alternately pulled away, encouraging me to follow, and took the lead, pushing her tongue into my mouth or sucking on my lips. It was so good – and I’d wanted her so long – how could I not slide my hand up her thigh and over her dress, headed for her big breasts?
But even a little drunk she wanted to take her time, “Slow down,” she whispered, moving my hand to her hip.
I tried to settle down but all I really wanted was to get on top of her, hike her skirt up and fuck her silly.
Instead, we made out like high school kids. Lots of kissing, lots of sighs, hands roaming over shapes hidden by clothes – seemingly for hours. I clutched at her breasts through her bra. I would slide my hand up her thigh, pushing her dress along with it, until she would stop me and we’d continue kissing. Her hands pinched the head of my cock through my jeans. It was slow yet intense.
I was shaking by the time she crawled across the console into my lap. She fumbled for the lever and the bucket seat leaned back, her straddling me. She ground her crotch against me but I couldn’t feel much with the layer of denim and zipper between us. I squeezed her breasts, kissing at her cleavage. She pulled my head up and whispered in my ear, “Do you want me?”
“Yessss…” I whispered back.
She worked her hips in slow circles. I pushed up against her.
“Tell me,” she whispered.
“Oh, Kayla, I want you so bad…”
I’d never been much of a talker during sex. Forming coherent sentences and fucking at the same time isn’t my strong suit.
“More,” she said.
I would have to learn.
“I want to be inside you – feel that wet pussy on me.”
She moved a little faster, a little firmer against me. I didn’t need more encouragement.
“I want to feel you cum on my cock while I suck your nipples,” I said, voice shaking, while I squeezed her breasts through her bra.
She let out a sigh and lifted up, her pussy barely brushing over the lump in my jeans. I lifted up to press against her and she held herself there, me lifting as long as I could and shaking with the effort before she pushed back down again. Her smell filled the air in the car.
“Oh shit I want to fuck you so bad,” I said, no longer just playing the part. She had me as worked up as a high school boy with blue balls.
She rotated her hips in small circles. I imagined her panties rubbing over my jeans, her clit millimeters away from the head of my cock.
“Please Kayla…” I groaned, genuinely wanted to end the foreplay, get naked and get off.
But Kayla was about to get off, fully clothed. She shuddered and groaned, “Oh god….” I realized she was there and did what I could to push her over the edge, pinching at her nipples behind the cotton and satin layers of her dress and bra.
She stopped moving except to just lay on top of me and shiver. I thought she was done already but when I started to shift she said, “Don’t… move…”
I kept up my small thrusts and the pressure on her breasts as she continued to cum. It wasn’t an explosive, amazing orgasm, more a drawn out small one.
She stopped shivering and kissed my neck.
“I’m sorry…” she whispered in my ear.
I was still pushing against her, desperately. “What for?”
“Just… I didn’t want to screw up our friendship. If I didn’t know you I’d probably sleep with you tonight.”
“Well pretend you don’t know me,” I let out without a thought.
She was coming down from both a physical and emotional high. I had been a momentary distraction, a drunken decision that she was already regretting, moments after orgasm (she would’ve made a typical male.)
“Come inside with me,” I said, nodding toward my apartment as she rolled off me. Her smell wafted up and turned my brain into mush.
“No. I just needed… something. I guess I just wanted to feel wanted again.”
”I want you,” I said, hoping to smooth the way for things to continue.
“I know. And I thought we could just keep it friendly. But me and sex… I don’t want to hurt you.”
”Then let’s stop being friends.”
She looked at me, taken aback for a moment.
“Let’s date. For real,” I continued.
“Look, I like you but… this isn’t the only weird thing about me.”
”I like you too. And I’d like to find out what other weird things you’re hiding.”
”You’re not going to like this one.”
“I still haven’t recovered from the last one,” I said, adjusting my still-throbbing erection.
“Sorry.”
“It’s ok. Let’s go inside and talk.”
“No. I’m going to go home. If you still want to be friends – just friends – call me sometime,” she said, obviously a little flustered.
I was more than a little flustered. The hormones raging inside me took over and I shook my head in annoyance and rolled out of the car in a huff. I slammed the door a bit too hard and headed for my apartment.
She started the car and pulled away.
I was so pissed off, hurt and confused I didn’t even masturbate that night. Of course, the next morning my cock was so hard I barely lasted a minute before spurting all over my chest and stomach.
I gave it a week before going back to the café. I was sorry I’d acted like a high school punk but there’s a reason high school punks act that way – too much testosterone, and Kayla had gotten mine cranked up.
I sat in her section. She walked over, “Hi.”
“Hi.”
“How are you?”
“I’m ok. How are you?”
“I’m sorry.”
“It’s ok. Really. I’m sorry if I… wasn’t understanding.”
“No, it’s my fault. I’ve got issues.”
I thought, “I’ll say,” but just nodded and ordered a drink. Once I got it into me I asked her out again.
“I don’t know…” she said.
”Just as friends,” I said, anticipating her doubts.
She agreed.
We had two or three dates-that-weren’t-dates. The encounter in the car had obviously done something do her because she seemed to make a point of asking me about my sex life at least once every date – how many women I’d been with, what my first time was like, even asking what I fantasized about. But every time she seemed to derail the conversation when it would normally have been her turn to open up.
For example, “So, you ever been with a guy?” she asked after we’d met a gay friend of hers.
“Nope.”
”Ever fantasized about it?”
I was honest and open with her pretty much at all times but this was a different level of intimacy, something I probably only would’ve shared with a girlfriend after really getting comfortable and to a certain level of trust, but Kayla would needle me until I confessed anyhow so I just let it out, “Sure, a few times.”
“Like when?”
“Well the first time I saw Mad Max on video… there’s something about young Mel Gibson in black leather walking down the middle of the road.”
She nodded with a smile.
“But nothing real – nobody you’ve met in person?”
“I don’t know, it’s more of a fantasy thing, something I’m not sure I’d ever do for real. Some things are better left as fantasy, don’t you think?”
“Oh, come on, don’t you want to try it before you die?” she asked.
“I’m not sure the reality is going to be better than the fantasy. I think it would just be… weird.”
“You pussy,” she said, giving me a little punch on the shoulder.
I just rolled my eyes and asked, “So… what about you?”
“Yeah, I’ve fantasized about a few guys.”
I gave her a “Screw you” look.
Then the waiter came with our food and I never got real details out of her.
This bothered me until about the third date when I realized either she was just curious and liked to talk about sex, or maybe this was some kind of test – a probe to see if I was a complete wacko. I wondered if maybe she wasn’t taking baby steps in my direction, first through conversation before things got physical. Pretty soon I was *hoping* this was the case rather than just wondering.
On the next date we were at a gallery opening for a friend of hers, an ok show but really I’d set up the date determined to get to the bottom of things. I waited until we were on the way home, the usual time for intimate conversation, especially after a few glasses of wine back at the gallery.
“So… the only thing I know about your sex life is that you like the heavy petting. What other weird things you got going on that you won’t tell me about?” I asked.
“I figured you’d ask,” she said, rolling her eyes but with a smile.
Her smirk put me at ease but she didn’t open up. She just let my question hang there.
“Come on, fess up,” I goaded.
Still silence. I glanced over at her and caught her staring at me in consideration. We were almost to her place when finally spoke.
”You’re just not my type.”
“What, don’t I make enough money for ya?” I said, jokingly (but hoping it was just a joke.)
“Not exactly.”
“Then what?”
We pulled into her drive and I put the car in park and looked over at her with a “Well…?” expression that told her I wasn’t going to let the subject rest.
“Not tonight,” she said. Her tone implied that she might be willing to talk about it one of these days but I couldn’t let it go at that. Maybe the wine had taken down my normal inhibitions – or maybe I just wanted her that much.
“Kayla!”
“Look, I’m serious. You aren’t my type, ok? Let’s just be friends at leave it at that.”
She kissed me on the cheek and let herself out of the car. My patience was at an end. I stepped out of the car and pursued her, literally and metaphorically.
“Come on, Kayla, at least tell me what it is. I like spending time with you, you seem to have a good time, I even enjoyed the weird make out thing. So what is it?”
She stopped at the door and turned, letting me catch up.
“Ok, fine, you want to know?” she said, then threw up air quotes, “The *weird make out thing* isn’t my only hangup about sex.”
“Everybody is a little weird -“ I started but she cut me off.
“After Daniel I had a few other boyfriends but nothing really did it for me in bed. Which would lead to fights and pretty soon I’d be alone again. I was dating this guy, Ben, when I met Louis, a guy in one of my classes. He hit on me constantly even though I told him I had a boyfriend. One day I was feeling down and Louis – Louis just made me feel… sexy. I finally gave in and he took me to his place and screwed my brains out. It was great. I came like I never had before. He had a big cock and he knew how to use it. All my other boyfriends were… y’know, average, and they’d last maybe two minutes but Louis fucked like a marathon runner. We screwed every few days. I even gave him blowjobs in the library. Ben didn’t know it but the reason I stopped sleeping with him is because he couldn’t compete. He didn’t find out about Louis until after we broke up but it messed me up to know I’d cheated on him.
So I broke it off with Louis, feeling guilty, and dated another guy. Then found myself fucking Louis again. Between his big dick and the sort of taboo of cheating I got to a point where that’s what sex was about.”
She stopped, probably just because she didn’t know what to say next, but I was glad for the break. It let her story sink in.
“So… what do you do know?” I asked.
“What do you mean?”
“Relationship-wise.”
“I only date guys with big cocks,” she said, matter-of-factly, “It’s gets me off without having to cheat.”
“What about the old ‘size isn’t important’?” I said, my tone not so matter-of-fact.
“It is to me,” she said, shrugging. Her tone told me this wasn’t a point of debate – it was fact.
“I’ve never had any complaints before,” I said, feeling hopeless.
“Look, you’re a great guy. I’d recommend you to any woman. But I don’t want to get involved with you. You’d get hurt and it wouldn’t be fun – for either of us.”
“There’s more to sex than a big dick, you know. Heck, there’s more to *life* than a big dick!”
“Yes, but I need a real friend, and a good, hard, no strings attached fuck. I’m not looking for *friends with benefits* and I like you more than that,” she said, opening her door. “So be my friend, ok?”
What is a guy supposed to say to that? She had opened up and been honest, which was nice, but it obviously wasn’t what I was hoping for. Had it been anyone else I probably would’ve driven off, shaking my head and mumbling, “That bitch is nuts.”
But I knew Kayla too well and wanted her for too long. My passivity took a back seat.
“No strings here. I’m sure I can make up for…” I started.
What do say? I’d never said anything like ‘my small dick’ in my life. I’d never had to.
“You won’t let this go, will you?” she asked.
I thought about it for a moment but the look on my face told her my answer.
“Tell you what, come in and see what I’m talking about,” she said, her tone challenging.
Confused but curious, I followed her in. I realized suddenly I’d never seen the inside of her place. She’d always met me at my car when I picked her up, or at the café, or she’d picked me up for our many dates. She’d kept me as distant from her apartment as she had from her sexual secrets.
It was a cute place, furnished well beyond the means of a waitress. Maybe her folks were rich, which might explain her cool, distant manner. She turned the lights on in her bedroom and went to a side table. She opened the drawer and turned around with a big, red dildo in her hand. She pointed it at me as if saying, “See? Do you measure up to this?” The thing was eight inches long, thick, with a ribbed shaft and bulbous head.
“Um… Ok…” I let out, at a loss for words.
“You wanna watch?” she said, her voice a tone of “You may not what you see.”
How many times in one day could this woman shock me into silence?
“Last chance before I kick you out the door,” she said, tossing the toy onto the bed and kicking her shoes off.
I now know she *wanted* me to watch but at the time it felt much more like a dare, one I might regret taking, as if she was really trying to spare my feelings. I stood there stupidly, my mind racing – to nowhere.
“Sure,” I said, sheepishly.
She pulled her shirt off. Her breasts looked magnificent in her bra.
She smiled, “Have a seat” and waved at a chair covered in clothes.
I moved the clothes and sat, watching her undress. The evening definitely wasn’t going as I’d hoped but I figured at least I’d get a heck of a show.
She pulled her skirt off, letting my eyes roam over her wonderful ass – her perfect cheeks bisected by a very sexy pair of black g-string panties. She moved about the room as if I wasn’t there, dropping her necklace into a jewelry box. She opened the clasp of her bra and tossed it aside, still acting as if she’d just gotten home from work alone instead of stripping for a desperate suitor who wasn’t going to get anywhere but would be tortured with a glimpse of his desires anyhow. The panties followed, her pubic hair trimmed short and shaved to a small triangle.
“You are gorgeous,” I said, shaking my head.
“Thanks!” she said, doing a playful curtsy. She turned off the overhead light and switched on the bedside lamp before crawling onto bed. “Now be quiet and don’t even think about climbing up here. You can watch and watch only unless I say so, ok?”
“ok.”
She arranged the pillows to her liking and laid back, the red dildo by her side. She closed her eyes and slid her right hand down between her legs. Her left brushed over her breasts delicately. Her other hand worked lazy circles around her pussy, pausing at her clit on each pass. Her smell began to fill the room, making me ache to taste her, feel her, fuck her. She kept this up for a long time, slowly getting more into it – pulling her nipples, working tight circles around her clit, dipping a fingertip into her pussy, beginning to arch her back. I stared, occasionally thinking about how that body had been on top of me a couple of weeks before with only a few layers of fabric between us. Instead, I’d been sent home hard and hurting. I silently hoped the same fate wasn’t in store for me again.
Eventually she reached over and picked up the big latex monster and slid it down between her legs. She grabbed it with both hands slid the massive head over her lips, up and down, slow and steady, pausing at the top to work circles around her clit. I was sliding my hand over the bulge in my pants in time to her movements, but when she started to push it inside her I stopped, again shocked and amazed at this woman. She slid half of it easily inside her in one smooth stroke.
She let out a gasp and stopped there. She took a few deep breaths and pulled the cock out again, then pushed it back. “Ohhh goddamn…”
Her other hand moved to her clit, working in the same slow circles she had with the head of the fake cock. The next stroke went in even further, probably 3/4 of the shaft inside her. Her lips stretched around the shaft. I could see her whole pussy move. She shivered with each push, obviously enjoying herself.
I glanced up. Her breasts were squeezed together by her arms as both hands worked between her legs. The look on her face, eyes clamped shut and mouth half open, was half pain, half pleasure, and all focus. The next thrust pulled my eyes back down. She was moving a little faster now, in and out in short strokes, only pulling an inch or two out before sliding it back in.
I could feel my own wetness seeping into my underwear and jeans. I’d watched girls masturbate before compared to this it had been downright dull! Her hips were thrusting up and down to match time with her hands. Her breathing got faster and her stomach muscles started clenching. Little moans escaped her lips, all the tell-tale signs of a woman on the edge. Then she stopped, pulling the dildo out and letting out a whimper. She thrust her hips into the air three or four times, then started again. It was the hottest damn thing I’d ever seen.
She repeated the cycle, but faster and sloppier the second time. Soon she was back to short, hard thrusts punctuated by moans, fingers wiggling across her clit, hips thrusting. She didn’t stop this time but instead pushed the dildo into her hard and fast. It looked painful. If it had been porn I would’ve thought it was just a show for the camera. If she’d acted like I was in the room I would’ve thought it was a show for me. Instead, it was all for her – thrusting deep and fast until she came, hard. This was nothing like the orgasm we’d had in the car. That had been cute and sweet, where this was intense and dirty.
She bounced up and down for a few thrusts then finally returned to earth. If I hadn’t been mentally competing with the big toy I might’ve pulled my cock out and climaxed with her but the scene was… intimidating.
She caught her breath as I sat there, my wait-and-see nature taking over. Maybe I was just too chicken to try anything after such a performance.
She slid the toy out slowly then tugged the sheets up over her and said, “Lock the door on your way out,” in a sleepy, satisfied way.
“What?”
She squinted in my direction. The show – and the conversation – were clearly over.
This time I masturbated before I even got out of the driveway, much less before I fell asleep. I was still frustrated and a little hurt, but just as much turned on. How many times could she do things like this to me and expect to remain just friends?
I noticed her as soon as I walked into the café that first time. You couldn’t help but notice her with those big breasts, big eyes, and long, dark hair. A radius of near silence surrounded her as she waited tables, those around her stunned as she neared – very hot.
I’ve never been intimidated by those most would consider “out of my league.” Humans are still animals and will respond to the right stimuli. So I got a seat in her section and let loose with the charm. She was friendly and responsive, but that was her job so I wasn’t sure if I was getting anywhere. At least I got a name - Kayla - but the café got too busy for me to really have more than a few flirty words with her so I resolved to come back later in the week.
Same thing next time – the joint filled up as I got warmed up to her but soon she was too busy to chat.
Then I had a busy week and didn’t get back to the café. But the following week I made it back and she smiled as I walked in and gave a little wave. At least she recognized me.
There wasn’t a table free in her section so I got a seat at the counter and ordered. I was happy when she came by to check on me, even though I wasn’t at one of her tables. “Do you need anything?”
“Only your phone number.”
“Pffff” she scoffed and walked off.
OK, maybe I wasn’t getting anywhere.
So I had my dinner while ogling her and headed out. I tried to catch her eye and wave as I left but the joint was hopping, as usual.
Normally I’d let it go at that. Clearly she wasn’t interested and there were other fish in the sea, but somehow I kept finding myself back at the café, in her section whenever I could find a seat there. Something about her made the hair on the back of my neck stand up. She moved with a certain disconnected grace, like she wasn’t on this planet at all and just barely noticed anyone here but would be warm and friendly when someone came near.
Or maybe she’s just really fucking hot.
Eventually she knew my name and would greet me when I walked in, take my order and move directly into small talk. But she always scoffed when I asked for her number or asked her out. So I was surprised one day when I was settling my tab and she walked over and said, “My car is in the shop. Can you give me a ride home?”
“Uh… sure!” I said, almost stammering.
Outside the work environment, she seemed to loosen up a bit. We had a nice conversation and seemed to hit it off. When we got to her house she thanked me and was about to hop out but I stopped her, “So why won’t you ever give me your number? I can be a charming date.”
“You’re nice. Maybe I will sometime.”
Then she slipped out the door.
So of course I was back at the café a few nights later, trying my luck again. This time she said, “I’ll be honest – I’m not looking for a date right now. I just got over someone. But I wouldn’t mind going out and doing something. I’ve got to get out of the house this weekend. So if you want to be friends that’s cool, but that’s all.”
“Alright,” I said, agreeing to anything I could get, thinking it might be the first step in the right direction or it wouldn’t work out, but either way it was worth a shot.
We had a few dates-that-weren’t-dates. It was frustrating because everywhere we went men would look at us and I could almost hear them thinking, “Shit, that lucky bastard.”
But no, we were just friends. We went to movies, gallery openings, met for lunch a few times, but nothing sexual happened for a couple of months.
She asked me on a not-really-a-date-date for a movie, The Island with Scarlett Johansson and Ewan McGregor. We had talked about our favorite objects of desire so Kayla knew I had a thing for Scarlett (what straight man doesn’t?) and she had a thing for Ewan (what straight woman doesn’t?) so it was the perfect film for a friends-only date, since it’s not a “date movie” kind of film.
It’s also not a great film, but we enjoyed it. Afterward neither of us were ready to go home so we stopped by the bar next door and chatted about the film, then about other stuff, until it was pretty late and we were both a little tipsy. I was feeling brave so on the way home I made another play.
“So… have you started dating again? I mean for real?”
“I’ve had a few dates but nothing real.”
“Real emotional or real… physical?
”Why, jealous?”
“No, just asking.”
“Nothing either. Sex with me is kind of weird.”
I figured she meant the typical female kind of “sex is important and I want to feel something for the person I’m having sex with” weird and just nodded. We pulled up in my driveway and she stopped and put the car in park. I was prepared to admit defeat and make the usual friendly goodbyes but in the silence she looked me in the eye as if considering something. I looked back with a “Well…?” smirk on my face. She turned the car off, getting my hopes up.
Rather than ask if she could come in or lean in for a kiss, she had been considering whether or not to tell me something. It came out.
“When I was in high school my first boyfriend, Daniel, and I used to make out. He wanted to go all the way but I was a virgin and I didn’t want to get pregnant and I wanted the first time to be special and all that stuff, so I kept putting him off. But we kept making out. We’d kiss, he’d get his hand in my pants or vice versa. Eventually we got around to dry humping and… I really got off on it. He’d be grinding against me, hard as a rock, and begging to fuck me and I learned to orgasm that way. Maybe he’d get off too or maybe I’d give him a handjob or blowjob but the best part for me was him rubbing my clit through my panties and telling me how much he wanted me. Sometimes I’d send him home without helping him get off just so I could go home and masturbate, thinking about how much he wanted me.”
I had to adjust myself. Of course I was picturing her in a car, some guy between her legs, his hand running over her amazing breasts, her getting off on it.
She noticed and giggled, “Sorry. I probably shouldn’t be telling you this stuff.”
“No, it’s ok,” I said, trying to sound friendly but wondering if I shouldn’t try to sound interested for other reasons. I can be a bit too passive in my relationships. I tend to sit back and see what happens, at least when it comes to sex. Some women find this intriguing, mysterious, and pursue. Others need a man who is the aggressive one. Often I sit back and wait too much and don’t take chances when I should. But Kayla’s body encouraged me to take chances though our relationship kept me at arm’s length. Each time she looked away during the conversation I couldn’t help but look down at her cleavage, barely peeking out from her dress.
So none of this introspection occurred to me as Kayla talked.
“I kept telling Daniel, ‘When summer comes we’ll have time to do it right.’” I think I was putting him off because I was still a little scared, but also because I didn’t want things to change. I was getting off and he kept coming back for more. I wasn’t just scared of sex, I was scared of losing him, and worried that sex – like, actual intercourse – would be a let-down. So when summer came around I ran out of excuses and we did it and it *was* a let-down.”
I nodded sympathetically, “The first time usually is for most people.”
”Yeah, well, it wasn’t just the first time. Every time I thought, ‘Is this *it*?’ I’d had much more fun just dry humping. I found myself avoiding Daniel because I knew he’d want to screw and I just wanted to make out. But I was young and didn’t know how to talk to him about it so we fought and broke up by the time summer was over. Which was ok because he went off to college and I had another year of high school.”
There was a long pause. My passivity returned. I wasn’t sure what to say. She’d just opened up and if we were really dating I’d kiss her and we’d connect physically after the emotional connection – but we weren’t dating.
“So…” she said, taking the initiative, “wanna make out?”
I leaned over to kiss her as an answer.
Maybe my “wait and see” attitude worked to my advantage, I thought, congratulating myself. The thing is, “just you wait and see” could be Kayla’s motto.
Her lips were big, soft, warm, wet, slippery – everything you want in a kiss. She alternately pulled away, encouraging me to follow, and took the lead, pushing her tongue into my mouth or sucking on my lips. It was so good – and I’d wanted her so long – how could I not slide my hand up her thigh and over her dress, headed for her big breasts?
But even a little drunk she wanted to take her time, “Slow down,” she whispered, moving my hand to her hip.
I tried to settle down but all I really wanted was to get on top of her, hike her skirt up and fuck her silly.
Instead, we made out like high school kids. Lots of kissing, lots of sighs, hands roaming over shapes hidden by clothes – seemingly for hours. I clutched at her breasts through her bra. I would slide my hand up her thigh, pushing her dress along with it, until she would stop me and we’d continue kissing. Her hands pinched the head of my cock through my jeans. It was slow yet intense.
I was shaking by the time she crawled across the console into my lap. She fumbled for the lever and the bucket seat leaned back, her straddling me. She ground her crotch against me but I couldn’t feel much with the layer of denim and zipper between us. I squeezed her breasts, kissing at her cleavage. She pulled my head up and whispered in my ear, “Do you want me?”
“Yessss…” I whispered back.
She worked her hips in slow circles. I pushed up against her.
“Tell me,” she whispered.
“Oh, Kayla, I want you so bad…”
I’d never been much of a talker during sex. Forming coherent sentences and fucking at the same time isn’t my strong suit.
“More,” she said.
I would have to learn.
“I want to be inside you – feel that wet pussy on me.”
She moved a little faster, a little firmer against me. I didn’t need more encouragement.
“I want to feel you cum on my cock while I suck your nipples,” I said, voice shaking, while I squeezed her breasts through her bra.
She let out a sigh and lifted up, her pussy barely brushing over the lump in my jeans. I lifted up to press against her and she held herself there, me lifting as long as I could and shaking with the effort before she pushed back down again. Her smell filled the air in the car.
“Oh shit I want to fuck you so bad,” I said, no longer just playing the part. She had me as worked up as a high school boy with blue balls.
She rotated her hips in small circles. I imagined her panties rubbing over my jeans, her clit millimeters away from the head of my cock.
“Please Kayla…” I groaned, genuinely wanted to end the foreplay, get naked and get off.
But Kayla was about to get off, fully clothed. She shuddered and groaned, “Oh god….” I realized she was there and did what I could to push her over the edge, pinching at her nipples behind the cotton and satin layers of her dress and bra.
She stopped moving except to just lay on top of me and shiver. I thought she was done already but when I started to shift she said, “Don’t… move…”
I kept up my small thrusts and the pressure on her breasts as she continued to cum. It wasn’t an explosive, amazing orgasm, more a drawn out small one.
She stopped shivering and kissed my neck.
“I’m sorry…” she whispered in my ear.
I was still pushing against her, desperately. “What for?”
“Just… I didn’t want to screw up our friendship. If I didn’t know you I’d probably sleep with you tonight.”
“Well pretend you don’t know me,” I let out without a thought.
She was coming down from both a physical and emotional high. I had been a momentary distraction, a drunken decision that she was already regretting, moments after orgasm (she would’ve made a typical male.)
“Come inside with me,” I said, nodding toward my apartment as she rolled off me. Her smell wafted up and turned my brain into mush.
“No. I just needed… something. I guess I just wanted to feel wanted again.”
”I want you,” I said, hoping to smooth the way for things to continue.
“I know. And I thought we could just keep it friendly. But me and sex… I don’t want to hurt you.”
”Then let’s stop being friends.”
She looked at me, taken aback for a moment.
“Let’s date. For real,” I continued.
“Look, I like you but… this isn’t the only weird thing about me.”
”I like you too. And I’d like to find out what other weird things you’re hiding.”
”You’re not going to like this one.”
“I still haven’t recovered from the last one,” I said, adjusting my still-throbbing erection.
“Sorry.”
“It’s ok. Let’s go inside and talk.”
“No. I’m going to go home. If you still want to be friends – just friends – call me sometime,” she said, obviously a little flustered.
I was more than a little flustered. The hormones raging inside me took over and I shook my head in annoyance and rolled out of the car in a huff. I slammed the door a bit too hard and headed for my apartment.
She started the car and pulled away.
I was so pissed off, hurt and confused I didn’t even masturbate that night. Of course, the next morning my cock was so hard I barely lasted a minute before spurting all over my chest and stomach.
I gave it a week before going back to the café. I was sorry I’d acted like a high school punk but there’s a reason high school punks act that way – too much testosterone, and Kayla had gotten mine cranked up.
I sat in her section. She walked over, “Hi.”
“Hi.”
“How are you?”
“I’m ok. How are you?”
“I’m sorry.”
“It’s ok. Really. I’m sorry if I… wasn’t understanding.”
“No, it’s my fault. I’ve got issues.”
I thought, “I’ll say,” but just nodded and ordered a drink. Once I got it into me I asked her out again.
“I don’t know…” she said.
”Just as friends,” I said, anticipating her doubts.
She agreed.
We had two or three dates-that-weren’t-dates. The encounter in the car had obviously done something do her because she seemed to make a point of asking me about my sex life at least once every date – how many women I’d been with, what my first time was like, even asking what I fantasized about. But every time she seemed to derail the conversation when it would normally have been her turn to open up.
For example, “So, you ever been with a guy?” she asked after we’d met a gay friend of hers.
“Nope.”
”Ever fantasized about it?”
I was honest and open with her pretty much at all times but this was a different level of intimacy, something I probably only would’ve shared with a girlfriend after really getting comfortable and to a certain level of trust, but Kayla would needle me until I confessed anyhow so I just let it out, “Sure, a few times.”
“Like when?”
“Well the first time I saw Mad Max on video… there’s something about young Mel Gibson in black leather walking down the middle of the road.”
She nodded with a smile.
“But nothing real – nobody you’ve met in person?”
“I don’t know, it’s more of a fantasy thing, something I’m not sure I’d ever do for real. Some things are better left as fantasy, don’t you think?”
“Oh, come on, don’t you want to try it before you die?” she asked.
“I’m not sure the reality is going to be better than the fantasy. I think it would just be… weird.”
“You pussy,” she said, giving me a little punch on the shoulder.
I just rolled my eyes and asked, “So… what about you?”
“Yeah, I’ve fantasized about a few guys.”
I gave her a “Screw you” look.
Then the waiter came with our food and I never got real details out of her.
This bothered me until about the third date when I realized either she was just curious and liked to talk about sex, or maybe this was some kind of test – a probe to see if I was a complete wacko. I wondered if maybe she wasn’t taking baby steps in my direction, first through conversation before things got physical. Pretty soon I was *hoping* this was the case rather than just wondering.
On the next date we were at a gallery opening for a friend of hers, an ok show but really I’d set up the date determined to get to the bottom of things. I waited until we were on the way home, the usual time for intimate conversation, especially after a few glasses of wine back at the gallery.
“So… the only thing I know about your sex life is that you like the heavy petting. What other weird things you got going on that you won’t tell me about?” I asked.
“I figured you’d ask,” she said, rolling her eyes but with a smile.
Her smirk put me at ease but she didn’t open up. She just let my question hang there.
“Come on, fess up,” I goaded.
Still silence. I glanced over at her and caught her staring at me in consideration. We were almost to her place when finally spoke.
”You’re just not my type.”
“What, don’t I make enough money for ya?” I said, jokingly (but hoping it was just a joke.)
“Not exactly.”
“Then what?”
We pulled into her drive and I put the car in park and looked over at her with a “Well…?” expression that told her I wasn’t going to let the subject rest.
“Not tonight,” she said. Her tone implied that she might be willing to talk about it one of these days but I couldn’t let it go at that. Maybe the wine had taken down my normal inhibitions – or maybe I just wanted her that much.
“Kayla!”
“Look, I’m serious. You aren’t my type, ok? Let’s just be friends at leave it at that.”
She kissed me on the cheek and let herself out of the car. My patience was at an end. I stepped out of the car and pursued her, literally and metaphorically.
“Come on, Kayla, at least tell me what it is. I like spending time with you, you seem to have a good time, I even enjoyed the weird make out thing. So what is it?”
She stopped at the door and turned, letting me catch up.
“Ok, fine, you want to know?” she said, then threw up air quotes, “The *weird make out thing* isn’t my only hangup about sex.”
“Everybody is a little weird -“ I started but she cut me off.
“After Daniel I had a few other boyfriends but nothing really did it for me in bed. Which would lead to fights and pretty soon I’d be alone again. I was dating this guy, Ben, when I met Louis, a guy in one of my classes. He hit on me constantly even though I told him I had a boyfriend. One day I was feeling down and Louis – Louis just made me feel… sexy. I finally gave in and he took me to his place and screwed my brains out. It was great. I came like I never had before. He had a big cock and he knew how to use it. All my other boyfriends were… y’know, average, and they’d last maybe two minutes but Louis fucked like a marathon runner. We screwed every few days. I even gave him blowjobs in the library. Ben didn’t know it but the reason I stopped sleeping with him is because he couldn’t compete. He didn’t find out about Louis until after we broke up but it messed me up to know I’d cheated on him.
So I broke it off with Louis, feeling guilty, and dated another guy. Then found myself fucking Louis again. Between his big dick and the sort of taboo of cheating I got to a point where that’s what sex was about.”
She stopped, probably just because she didn’t know what to say next, but I was glad for the break. It let her story sink in.
“So… what do you do know?” I asked.
“What do you mean?”
“Relationship-wise.”
“I only date guys with big cocks,” she said, matter-of-factly, “It’s gets me off without having to cheat.”
“What about the old ‘size isn’t important’?” I said, my tone not so matter-of-fact.
“It is to me,” she said, shrugging. Her tone told me this wasn’t a point of debate – it was fact.
“I’ve never had any complaints before,” I said, feeling hopeless.
“Look, you’re a great guy. I’d recommend you to any woman. But I don’t want to get involved with you. You’d get hurt and it wouldn’t be fun – for either of us.”
“There’s more to sex than a big dick, you know. Heck, there’s more to *life* than a big dick!”
“Yes, but I need a real friend, and a good, hard, no strings attached fuck. I’m not looking for *friends with benefits* and I like you more than that,” she said, opening her door. “So be my friend, ok?”
What is a guy supposed to say to that? She had opened up and been honest, which was nice, but it obviously wasn’t what I was hoping for. Had it been anyone else I probably would’ve driven off, shaking my head and mumbling, “That bitch is nuts.”
But I knew Kayla too well and wanted her for too long. My passivity took a back seat.
“No strings here. I’m sure I can make up for…” I started.
What do say? I’d never said anything like ‘my small dick’ in my life. I’d never had to.
“You won’t let this go, will you?” she asked.
I thought about it for a moment but the look on my face told her my answer.
“Tell you what, come in and see what I’m talking about,” she said, her tone challenging.
Confused but curious, I followed her in. I realized suddenly I’d never seen the inside of her place. She’d always met me at my car when I picked her up, or at the café, or she’d picked me up for our many dates. She’d kept me as distant from her apartment as she had from her sexual secrets.
It was a cute place, furnished well beyond the means of a waitress. Maybe her folks were rich, which might explain her cool, distant manner. She turned the lights on in her bedroom and went to a side table. She opened the drawer and turned around with a big, red dildo in her hand. She pointed it at me as if saying, “See? Do you measure up to this?” The thing was eight inches long, thick, with a ribbed shaft and bulbous head.
“Um… Ok…” I let out, at a loss for words.
“You wanna watch?” she said, her voice a tone of “You may not what you see.”
How many times in one day could this woman shock me into silence?
“Last chance before I kick you out the door,” she said, tossing the toy onto the bed and kicking her shoes off.
I now know she *wanted* me to watch but at the time it felt much more like a dare, one I might regret taking, as if she was really trying to spare my feelings. I stood there stupidly, my mind racing – to nowhere.
“Sure,” I said, sheepishly.
She pulled her shirt off. Her breasts looked magnificent in her bra.
She smiled, “Have a seat” and waved at a chair covered in clothes.
I moved the clothes and sat, watching her undress. The evening definitely wasn’t going as I’d hoped but I figured at least I’d get a heck of a show.
She pulled her skirt off, letting my eyes roam over her wonderful ass – her perfect cheeks bisected by a very sexy pair of black g-string panties. She moved about the room as if I wasn’t there, dropping her necklace into a jewelry box. She opened the clasp of her bra and tossed it aside, still acting as if she’d just gotten home from work alone instead of stripping for a desperate suitor who wasn’t going to get anywhere but would be tortured with a glimpse of his desires anyhow. The panties followed, her pubic hair trimmed short and shaved to a small triangle.
“You are gorgeous,” I said, shaking my head.
“Thanks!” she said, doing a playful curtsy. She turned off the overhead light and switched on the bedside lamp before crawling onto bed. “Now be quiet and don’t even think about climbing up here. You can watch and watch only unless I say so, ok?”
“ok.”
She arranged the pillows to her liking and laid back, the red dildo by her side. She closed her eyes and slid her right hand down between her legs. Her left brushed over her breasts delicately. Her other hand worked lazy circles around her pussy, pausing at her clit on each pass. Her smell began to fill the room, making me ache to taste her, feel her, fuck her. She kept this up for a long time, slowly getting more into it – pulling her nipples, working tight circles around her clit, dipping a fingertip into her pussy, beginning to arch her back. I stared, occasionally thinking about how that body had been on top of me a couple of weeks before with only a few layers of fabric between us. Instead, I’d been sent home hard and hurting. I silently hoped the same fate wasn’t in store for me again.
Eventually she reached over and picked up the big latex monster and slid it down between her legs. She grabbed it with both hands slid the massive head over her lips, up and down, slow and steady, pausing at the top to work circles around her clit. I was sliding my hand over the bulge in my pants in time to her movements, but when she started to push it inside her I stopped, again shocked and amazed at this woman. She slid half of it easily inside her in one smooth stroke.
She let out a gasp and stopped there. She took a few deep breaths and pulled the cock out again, then pushed it back. “Ohhh goddamn…”
Her other hand moved to her clit, working in the same slow circles she had with the head of the fake cock. The next stroke went in even further, probably 3/4 of the shaft inside her. Her lips stretched around the shaft. I could see her whole pussy move. She shivered with each push, obviously enjoying herself.
I glanced up. Her breasts were squeezed together by her arms as both hands worked between her legs. The look on her face, eyes clamped shut and mouth half open, was half pain, half pleasure, and all focus. The next thrust pulled my eyes back down. She was moving a little faster now, in and out in short strokes, only pulling an inch or two out before sliding it back in.
I could feel my own wetness seeping into my underwear and jeans. I’d watched girls masturbate before compared to this it had been downright dull! Her hips were thrusting up and down to match time with her hands. Her breathing got faster and her stomach muscles started clenching. Little moans escaped her lips, all the tell-tale signs of a woman on the edge. Then she stopped, pulling the dildo out and letting out a whimper. She thrust her hips into the air three or four times, then started again. It was the hottest damn thing I’d ever seen.
She repeated the cycle, but faster and sloppier the second time. Soon she was back to short, hard thrusts punctuated by moans, fingers wiggling across her clit, hips thrusting. She didn’t stop this time but instead pushed the dildo into her hard and fast. It looked painful. If it had been porn I would’ve thought it was just a show for the camera. If she’d acted like I was in the room I would’ve thought it was a show for me. Instead, it was all for her – thrusting deep and fast until she came, hard. This was nothing like the orgasm we’d had in the car. That had been cute and sweet, where this was intense and dirty.
She bounced up and down for a few thrusts then finally returned to earth. If I hadn’t been mentally competing with the big toy I might’ve pulled my cock out and climaxed with her but the scene was… intimidating.
She caught her breath as I sat there, my wait-and-see nature taking over. Maybe I was just too chicken to try anything after such a performance.
She slid the toy out slowly then tugged the sheets up over her and said, “Lock the door on your way out,” in a sleepy, satisfied way.
“What?”
She squinted in my direction. The show – and the conversation – were clearly over.
This time I masturbated before I even got out of the driveway, much less before I fell asleep. I was still frustrated and a little hurt, but just as much turned on. How many times could she do things like this to me and expect to remain just friends?